birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

(9/14) Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update (9/15) - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.

Update (9/15) - He is still breathing on his own, now with the assistance of a nasal cannula (the tubes that go in your nose) since yesterday around 3pm.  He’s sitting up joking and laughing.  And of course, wanting to go home.  Having a hard time swallowing, docs should be checking that out today.  Not out of the woods yet, but it’s looking less bleak. 

Update (9/16) - His swallow and gag reflex is impaired, so has a feeding tube in.  But will hopefully be getting him to sit in a chair for up to 12 hours to help with his breathing!  Little things, little steps…

Update (9/22) - They moved him from Intensive Care to Intermediate Care.  Still can’t swallow, think he’s going to have to relearn that one.  Able to talk, but very rough.  He really wants to go home, but not looking like that’s going to happen for maybe a month or so.  After the hospital, he’ll still need a lot of treatment, which means he’ll probably be staying in an assisted care type place with a nurse staff.
His favorite phrase during all of this (other than “I want to go home”), “I’m not dead yet!”  Always said with a smile/half chuckle.
birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

(9/14) Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update (9/15) - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.

Update (9/15) - He is still breathing on his own, now with the assistance of a nasal cannula (the tubes that go in your nose) since yesterday around 3pm.  He’s sitting up joking and laughing.  And of course, wanting to go home.  Having a hard time swallowing, docs should be checking that out today.  Not out of the woods yet, but it’s looking less bleak. 

Update (9/16) - His swallow and gag reflex is impaired, so has a feeding tube in.  But will hopefully be getting him to sit in a chair for up to 12 hours to help with his breathing!  Little things, little steps…

Update (9/22) - They moved him from Intensive Care to Intermediate Care.  Still can’t swallow, think he’s going to have to relearn that one.  Able to talk, but very rough.  He really wants to go home, but not looking like that’s going to happen for maybe a month or so.  After the hospital, he’ll still need a lot of treatment, which means he’ll probably be staying in an assisted care type place with a nurse staff.
His favorite phrase during all of this (other than “I want to go home”), “I’m not dead yet!”  Always said with a smile/half chuckle.
birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

(9/14) Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update (9/15) - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.

Update (9/15) - He is still breathing on his own, now with the assistance of a nasal cannula (the tubes that go in your nose) since yesterday around 3pm.  He’s sitting up joking and laughing.  And of course, wanting to go home.  Having a hard time swallowing, docs should be checking that out today.  Not out of the woods yet, but it’s looking less bleak. 

Update (9/16) - His swallow and gag reflex is impaired, so has a feeding tube in.  But will hopefully be getting him to sit in a chair for up to 12 hours to help with his breathing!  Little things, little steps…

Update (9/22) - They moved him from Intensive Care to Intermediate Care.  Still can’t swallow, think he’s going to have to relearn that one.  Able to talk, but very rough.  He really wants to go home, but not looking like that’s going to happen for maybe a month or so.  After the hospital, he’ll still need a lot of treatment, which means he’ll probably be staying in an assisted care type place with a nurse staff.
His favorite phrase during all of this (other than “I want to go home”), “I’m not dead yet!”  Always said with a smile/half chuckle.

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

(9/14) Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  

I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update (9/15) - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.

Update (9/15) - He is still breathing on his own, now with the assistance of a nasal cannula (the tubes that go in your nose) since yesterday around 3pm.  He’s sitting up joking and laughing.  And of course, wanting to go home.  Having a hard time swallowing, docs should be checking that out today.  Not out of the woods yet, but it’s looking less bleak. 

Update (9/16) - His swallow and gag reflex is impaired, so has a feeding tube in.  But will hopefully be getting him to sit in a chair for up to 12 hours to help with his breathing!  Little things, little steps…

Update (9/22) - They moved him from Intensive Care to Intermediate Care.  Still can’t swallow, think he’s going to have to relearn that one.  Able to talk, but very rough.  He really wants to go home, but not looking like that’s going to happen for maybe a month or so.  After the hospital, he’ll still need a lot of treatment, which means he’ll probably be staying in an assisted care type place with a nurse staff.

His favorite phrase during all of this (other than “I want to go home”), “I’m not dead yet!”  Always said with a smile/half chuckle.

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.

Update - He is still breathing on his own, now with the assistance of a nasal cannula (the tubes that go in your nose) since yesterday around 3pm.  He’s sitting up joking and laughing.  And of course, wanting to go home.  Having a hard time swallowing, docs should be checking that out today.  Not out of the woods yet, but it’s looking less bleak. 

Update - His swallow and gag reflex is impaired, so has a feeding tube in.  But will hopefully be getting him to sit in a chair for up to 12 hours to help with his breathing!  Little things, little steps…
birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.

Update - He is still breathing on his own, now with the assistance of a nasal cannula (the tubes that go in your nose) since yesterday around 3pm.  He’s sitting up joking and laughing.  And of course, wanting to go home.  Having a hard time swallowing, docs should be checking that out today.  Not out of the woods yet, but it’s looking less bleak. 

Update - His swallow and gag reflex is impaired, so has a feeding tube in.  But will hopefully be getting him to sit in a chair for up to 12 hours to help with his breathing!  Little things, little steps…
birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.

Update - He is still breathing on his own, now with the assistance of a nasal cannula (the tubes that go in your nose) since yesterday around 3pm.  He’s sitting up joking and laughing.  And of course, wanting to go home.  Having a hard time swallowing, docs should be checking that out today.  Not out of the woods yet, but it’s looking less bleak. 

Update - His swallow and gag reflex is impaired, so has a feeding tube in.  But will hopefully be getting him to sit in a chair for up to 12 hours to help with his breathing!  Little things, little steps…

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  

I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.

Update - He is still breathing on his own, now with the assistance of a nasal cannula (the tubes that go in your nose) since yesterday around 3pm.  He’s sitting up joking and laughing.  And of course, wanting to go home.  Having a hard time swallowing, docs should be checking that out today.  Not out of the woods yet, but it’s looking less bleak. 

Update - His swallow and gag reflex is impaired, so has a feeding tube in.  But will hopefully be getting him to sit in a chair for up to 12 hours to help with his breathing!  Little things, little steps…

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.

Update - He is still breathing on his own, now with the assistance of a nasal cannula (the tubes that go in your nose) since yesterday around 3pm.  He’s sitting up joking and laughing.  And of course, wanting to go home.  Having a hard time swallowing, docs should be checking that out today.  Not out of the woods yet, but it’s looking less bleak. 
birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.

Update - He is still breathing on his own, now with the assistance of a nasal cannula (the tubes that go in your nose) since yesterday around 3pm.  He’s sitting up joking and laughing.  And of course, wanting to go home.  Having a hard time swallowing, docs should be checking that out today.  Not out of the woods yet, but it’s looking less bleak. 
birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.

Update - He is still breathing on his own, now with the assistance of a nasal cannula (the tubes that go in your nose) since yesterday around 3pm.  He’s sitting up joking and laughing.  And of course, wanting to go home.  Having a hard time swallowing, docs should be checking that out today.  Not out of the woods yet, but it’s looking less bleak. 

birdnamedkitten:

birdnamedkitten:

Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  

I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.

Update - He is still breathing on his own, now with the assistance of a nasal cannula (the tubes that go in your nose) since yesterday around 3pm.  He’s sitting up joking and laughing.  And of course, wanting to go home.  Having a hard time swallowing, docs should be checking that out today.  Not out of the woods yet, but it’s looking less bleak. 

birdnamedkitten:

Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.
birdnamedkitten:

Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.
birdnamedkitten:

Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.

birdnamedkitten:

Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  

I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Update - The tubes are out and he is breathing on his own with a face mask feeding him oxygen.  Rough speech, able to say that he wants to go home.  Doesn’t remember much, but that’s drugs for you.  Here’s hoping he’s strong enough to keep this up so he doesn’t need the trache.

Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.
Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.
Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  
I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

Please send healing vibes, good thoughts, prayers, or anything that suits you to my grandfather today.  He had a massive stroke a couple weeks ago and is probably getting a tracheotomy today.  Although I am very concerned for quality of life, there is a possibility (albeit small) that he could pull through.  He has lost 1/3 of his brain, but he was lucid most of the time during my visit to him yesterday.  Even quite mobile (while in his bed).  Main thing is that he cannot breathe without assistance.  

I don’t know how much I really believe in a higher power, but he does, and if it could help, I’m open.  So please, send something towards my grandfather.  He is only 67.

What illness has taught me-repost

getsomehappyhormones:

What being sick has taught me:

  1. To be able to throw any object from my bed to the trash can.
  2. To run to the bathroom really fast to avoid getting sick anywhere else. If it was a marathon, I’d get first place.
  3. No one thinks your illness is as bad as you do. Nobody.
  4. No one knows what it is like to feel sick like you do. Don’t ask people to understand exactly how you feel because they most likely can’t. If you are expecting them to understand, then you are cutting yourself and them short.
  5. You will have good days. You will have bad days. Just because you have good days doesn’t mean that the bad days are even worse when they come. Life has ups and downs. So does illness.
  6. You are NOT your illness. My name isn’t a diagnosis code, nor a medical condition. Don’t let anyone refer to you as “that girl or guy with that illness”.
  7. To become great at “dancing” to music sitting up or in the supine position. Try it. It’s a lot more fun than you think
  8. To master the art of “dissapearing” quickly and quietly. Of course I was in school yesterday, I just left without a trace.
  9. You are stronger than anyone gives you credit for. Even yourself.
  10. Fighting is not only made for the school cafeteria or local park when someone messed with you. You fight everyday to stand, walk, eat, breath and be okay. Be proud of yourself because if you are clearly winning.
  11. To not self diagnose at three in the morning. Or anytime. But especially late at night. Don’t read WebMD or Wikipedia. Doctors go to medical school for a reason. Note: some doctors are not that competent, so leave them out of this equation.
  12. You are worth more than any prescription, ever. Why would you want to be so generic anyways?
  13. If people stick with you through it all, thank them. If people don’t, let them go. It isn’t a reflection on you. Illness is hard on everyone in the equation.
  14. No, Netflix is not your best friend. Yes, it’s great and a good way to pass the time. But nothing beats interacting with people. If you can, get out and enjoy it.
  15. It will be okay in the end. Every breath you’ve already taken and every beat of your heart (even if it’s a racing one) is towards your recovery or towards coping. Don’t forget that.